Hey, Cling on to Allah & Rasulluah S.W.T at ur toughest moment. InsyAllah, it might help. :)
Hi, Im Siti Sulyana Aderes.
I'm a NURSE & idk if i should be proud of it.
But,i LOVE my JOB.
I prefer taking care of the old.
I wish to stay & have my own house.
I love to be alone in people's country.
I want to retiree & travel my whole life.
I love to Day Dream.
But,afterall i still have a Family to take care off!
& i LOVE THEM!!!!!
you got to sit and guess what? listen to my intres... / change for a new.. / take a nap & i shall write a story. / people see you suffer but not me. / When the one you love hurt you.. / Back again as one.. took me 6hours to answer.. / Decision make me wiser please. / WHY DID YOU CAME BACK? / TRUST / Husayn Ruhulluah,im sorry /
December 2010 March 2011
you got to sit and guess what? listen to my intresting love story. / Tuesday, March 22, 2011 @ 3/22/2011 09:27:00 AM
Up there is my frens, my close fren and my beloved boyfriend.
Butt right now im very hurt and no one is here to help me.
His there to help butt i don't feel good about it.
Yes,i'm a bad gf who had difficulty expressing my love towards you.
You're my longest boyfriend and i love you.
To be honest my love for you never, let it make you clear NEVER fade.
I said that because something struck. Something happen. Butt,i love you.
I'm trying my best to put up everything.
Butt im afraid right now if something might happen and he will leave me.. :(
hey,u might not know how much you meant to me.
BUTT you are like another part of me.
im just so comfortable being around you..
If you know that you are special thank god.
I dont want to be like our friends.
Our history is special to me. and now is more special to me.
haix,im talking otp with my fren, and i really cant concentrate...
butt i love you la.. pls understand that.
take note!
Okay she hung up on me coz i kept quiet all the way..
haaaa. i cant think.
1st thing im not going to jeopardise my relationship for a third party.
2nd thing im not proud butt this is the truth. at the age of 16 i broke off with my ex. and till i met him i was single except that dating around with guys which is my frens or someone ive never met. almost every night i will hang around be home late night. going to JB which i know that guy is a pervert who will do something to me and still i took the risk and went there with him. i went out with different guy. seeing how hurt i am when i saw you with her. i nearly got into a relationship coz i thought i would never got to be with you, and that guy is habibullah. butt. i simply cant get my mind out of you. yes the feeling wasnt there but the hope is there. i got to know different guys, which different attitude. one which wanted to hold my hand,kiss my even im with scarf,ask me home for pizza,went jb and try to hug me. butt,none managed coz they are just not like you. do you know that?
You take good care of me. Caring,scolded me with my FBT shorts,and we made a good soccer partner. u respect me when i said no hanky panky. butt the others didnt.
And what makes you more special is that i put on my scarf after 2 years i took it off.you like it this way. and im glad that i found someone that could accept me with scarf and didnt take advantage of me. butt that was then. i love you.
Up there is my frens, my close fren and my beloved boyfriend.
Butt right now im very hurt and no one is here to help me.
His there to help butt i don't feel good about it.
Yes,i'm a bad gf who had difficulty expressing my love towards you.
You're my longest boyfriend and i love you.
To be honest my love for you never, let it make you clear NEVER fade.
I said that because something struck. Something happen. Butt,i love you.
I'm trying my best to put up everything.
Butt im afraid right now if something might happen and he will leave me.. :(
hey,u might not know how much you meant to me.
BUTT you are like another part of me.
im just so comfortable being around you..
If you know that you are special thank god.
I dont want to be like our friends.
Our history is special to me. and now is more special to me.
haix,im talking otp with my fren, and i really cant concentrate...
butt i love you la.. pls understand that.
take note!
Okay she hung up on me coz i kept quiet all the way..
haaaa. i cant think.
1st thing im not going to jeopardise my relationship for a third party.
2nd thing im not proud butt this is the truth. at the age of 16 i broke off with my ex. and till i met him i was single except that dating around with guys which is my frens or someone ive never met. almost every night i will hang around be home late night. going to JB which i know that guy is a pervert who will do something to me and still i took the risk and went there with him. i went out with different guy. seeing how hurt i am when i saw you with her. i nearly got into a relationship coz i thought i would never got to be with you, and that guy is habibullah. butt. i simply cant get my mind out of you. yes the feeling wasnt there but the hope is there. i got to know different guys, which different attitude. one which wanted to hold my hand,kiss my even im with scarf,ask me home for pizza,went jb and try to hug me. butt,none managed coz they are just not like you. do you know that?
You take good care of me. Caring,scolded me with my FBT shorts,and we made a good soccer partner. u respect me when i said no hanky panky. butt the others didnt.
And what makes you more special is that i put on my scarf after 2 years i took it off.you like it this way. and im glad that i found someone that could accept me with scarf and didnt take advantage of me. butt that was then. i love you.
Labels: everything happen for a reason
change for a new.. / Monday, December 27, 2010 @ 12/27/2010 03:28:00 PM
Hey, long since i update my blog.
I'm kinda of free right now so ya.. thought of checking you guys out.
Psst. im missing my bf badly right now.
Butt he dosent seem to be awake.
He went to Malaysia for two days & still havent met him yet.
Dosent matter,im working too. Butt,now is like 1530hrs & his sleeping like a Pig.
hmmm,benci.
Okay @ work now.
Not now from morning.
Felt asleep wake up abg bought me food & i makan.
Boss sleeping. Feeling tired. So,im the boss.
Such a pity he got Lung Cancer. :(
My previous patient went back to Myanmar.
I wonder i got all the good things in this world & why im still bad?
Sometime i wonder. looking out from the window where im sitting..
I feel bad. i hope i repent before its too late.
where is the old me? why the new attitude?
I dont blame anyone. butt myself.
Hey,phuket is cancel. haha!
Butt,turi beach here i come. :)
Labels: love you. miss you. just wait.
take a nap & i shall write a story. / Tuesday, December 21, 2010 @ 12/21/2010 02:24:00 PM
my patients taking a nap.
Lets be quick.
Bf,still havent txt me yet.
He kept doing things which i hate. Id.
Well,i really dun knw. When i get mad is so easy til i wana ask 4 a break bt,hey nt this time round. Y cant i be a lil mre patience? Hmm. Anyway we w0nt be long. Opps.
Let me tell u y i get mad. We've been arguing for 4 days now. 3days ago i was so desperate to bring him go dinner or maybe supper at lau pa sat bt,3 days gone. Idk where his whereabouts except telling me, "lavender" "bugis" with acomplish friend of mine. Tk ke irritating. I call he rejected. Okay fine its my fault for having the intention to overnight with my guy friend. My bad. So,i apologise yet...nt approved. "dont call me dear or b till u knw รจ limit of having a bf" wat e blare. I cancel it. Fine. He show attitude. I lost interest to go dinner with him & head home.
Best part, REACHING HOME,HAVE THE CHEEK TO ASK ME,"u dun want meet me?" funny ah.
U just dip urself in a hot soup! I cut the story short. Instead he did apologise bt i Was damn angry. I ignored. Ego.
Till then...my relationship will be like this. Sigh.
*watching harry potter & the sorceros stone* hee..
Plus when i need help no one was there and i mean ALL!
my patients taking a nap.
Lets be quick.
Bf,still havent txt me yet.
He kept doing things which i hate. Id.
Well,i really dun knw. When i get mad is so easy til i wana ask 4 a break bt,hey nt this time round. Y cant i be a lil mre patience? Hmm. Anyway we w0nt be long. Opps.
Let me tell u y i get mad. We've been arguing for 4 days now. 3days ago i was so desperate to bring him go dinner or maybe supper at lau pa sat bt,3 days gone. Idk where his whereabouts except telling me, "lavender" "bugis" with acomplish friend of mine. Tk ke irritating. I call he rejected. Okay fine its my fault for having the intention to overnight with my guy friend. My bad. So,i apologise yet...nt approved. "dont call me dear or b till u knw รจ limit of having a bf" wat e blare. I cancel it. Fine. He show attitude. I lost interest to go dinner with him & head home.
Best part, REACHING HOME,HAVE THE CHEEK TO ASK ME,"u dun want meet me?" funny ah.
U just dip urself in a hot soup! I cut the story short. Instead he did apologise bt i Was damn angry. I ignored. Ego.
Till then...my relationship will be like this. Sigh.
*watching harry potter & the sorceros stone* hee..
Plus when i need help no one was there and i mean ALL!
Labels: Where were you when i need you badly.that hurt me alot.
people see you suffer but not me. / Sunday, December 19, 2010 @ 12/19/2010 11:01:00 PM
Assalamualaikum.
Baik, cantik. SUMER MAU PAITAO.
Heh,tkpe nasib ada si myanmmar nie.
Every single day, we argue,quarrel & misunderstand.
Wow,even convict also know the limit of crime.
Haiz,well yes im tired of this game but i love him.
I try to make him understand. butt,idk.
Well, yes i agree im short tempered hot tempered. Butt,y u always piss me?
Who im referring too? that guy over there in the picture..
Hmmm, to see we loved each other is only i dream for.
To fight every single day and ending in this kind of situation is always me.
coz,within 5 month a total of 4 break up. REAL break up.
& the last one lasted me for 3 going 4 weeks. A month?
What more could i suffer?
There's no one i could share with this.
Deep down, yess we're good. butt,deep down. its HAUNTING me
Salah ke i pikir bukan2? salah i? haiz.
Got to sleep.
12 hours job is not easy aites.
task for 4 days. Fast cash. bye! :)
Labels: i hate fighting i miss you...
When the one you love hurt you.. / Thursday, December 16, 2010 @ 12/16/2010 09:14:00 PM
By,now you should see how strong my LOVE is to you..
If you still can't see, You're just a FOOL. i can say.
That morning really make me wake up.
OURS is going to be like our close friends.
But,i hope you wont lie like how it had always happen.
Cause,u'll see from yourself.
Im glad you didn't LIE.
Cause it only make it worse.
& after ol the shit i heard this morning, his FIRED.
Jobless. again. then. fight again. hmmmm,NO k.
B,iLOVEyou k. Cukup la dgn ape u da uat.
Tkkn i nk merana thru out this r'ship.
It's already rocky. i wouldn't want it to be as rocky as ever aites honey.
Just be like other guy. PLEASE.
Bangkok,ada chance macam tk jadi je from what i see. hmmm.
By,now you should see how strong my LOVE is to you..If you still can't see, You're just a FOOL. i can say.
That morning really make me wake up.
OURS is going to be like our close friends.
But,i hope you wont lie like how it had always happen.
Cause,u'll see from yourself.
Im glad you didn't LIE.
Cause it only make it worse.
& after ol the shit i heard this morning, his FIRED.
Jobless. again. then. fight again. hmmmm,NO k.
B,iLOVEyou k. Cukup la dgn ape u da uat.
Tkkn i nk merana thru out this r'ship.
It's already rocky. i wouldn't want it to be as rocky as ever aites honey.
Just be like other guy. PLEASE.
Bangkok,ada chance macam tk jadi je from what i see. hmmm.
Back again as one.. took me 6hours to answer.. / Wednesday, December 15, 2010 @ 12/15/2010 12:00:00 AM
Long day & it's tiring.
This is not what i want butt,i MISS him.
So,yarh. The promises i made not to be with him its like..haiz.
Okay, we're back together. & NOW i have difficulties telling my mum that. How?
i feel bad when i dont tell.
Btw,its not easy seeing him admit my mistake to his friends.
Yes,abdil might be harsh butt its my fault i tell the 'secret' to ines.
I shouldn't have too....
*will be continue* bro's got to sleep..
ZzzzzZZzzzzzzZzzzzzz
This is not what i want butt,i MISS him.
So,yarh. The promises i made not to be with him its like..haiz.
Okay, we're back together. & NOW i have difficulties telling my mum that. How?
i feel bad when i dont tell.
Btw,its not easy seeing him admit my mistake to his friends.
Yes,abdil might be harsh butt its my fault i tell the 'secret' to ines.
I shouldn't have too....
*will be continue* bro's got to sleep..
ZzzzzZZzzzzzzZzzzzzz
Okay, again continue... time check 1357Hrs.
Hey,check the flights to Bangkok since abdil not tagging.
It's 300-400. Thanks la enh.
I'm stressed. how?
Oh,ya.. have not been working for 3 days.
Today going Gala dinner. haha. Gala...
Im bored. tired. Sleepy. Sleepy.
Labels: And finally yes... :)
Decision make me wiser please. / Monday, December 13, 2010 @ 12/13/2010 03:03:00 PM
Talking to Dolphin Girl. Idiot la she. haha!
So, now what? to fall for you again?
Hey, i said NO seh. & i can't.
I wont let history repeat itself. Seriously!
Butt,i do still love you!
Hey,im missing you & ill meeting you later.
*ines is irritating* Otp with ines.
Bangkok BNANGKOK bangkok!!!
Hey,why should i say.
I want him but at the same time..
I think i should say what i want right
rather then i keep and hide my feeling..
Okay, i got nothing more to say.
Stress giler aku dibuatnyer..
Nie,ines pon satu not helping!!! id
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